Quarter Life Crisis

The other day I was looking through my sister’s Cds. She had borrowed my Shawn McDonald Cd (live in Seattle...amazing) and as I was flipping through her case I came across the John Mayer ‘Room for Squares" Cd. I wasn’t sure why but I felt like I needed to hear something from that Cd. John Mayer is sort of Acoustic/Jazzy/Easy Listening and I almost forgot how much I liked his material. One of his songs really ended up standing out to me. You always wonder if your favorite artists have any interest in God. Sometimes the lyrics convey deep emotions and a longing for something more. So deep that it seems spiritual in a sense.

John Mayer:

So what, so I've got a smile on
But it's hiding the quiet superstitions in my head
Don't believe me
When I say I've got it down

Everybody is just a stranger but
That's the danger in going my own way
I guess it's the price I have to pay
Still "everything happens for a reason"
Is no reason not to ask myself

If I am living it right
Am I living it right?
Am I living it right?
Why Georgia, why?

Sometimes I get stuck in a trend. Thinking that poor decisions are just a part of everything happening for a reason. Lately life has felt like a crisis situation. Very chaotic. Impossible to translate meaning to any occurrences in life. I know that, to keep myself in check, I have to constantly be asking myself "Am I living it right?" I need to go to sleep at night knowing that I did everything I could to stay in the will of God. And yes, sometimes I do fall out of the will of God. But the more I ask myself and the more I challenge myself, the closer I will be to Him. I’m asking God to pull me out of this quarter life crisis. To begin a stirring in my soul and a continual questioning of the progress of my spiritual life. Because lately, it seems there has been none made.